Coming up with an idea is always the hardest part of anything creative. Writing
the story for Ever and writing the script for Cold War has opened my eyes to
two things: How amazingly egotistical writing makes you and how amazingly
In chapter 4, I think I meant to take this opening this way:
Writing makes you egotistical because you either go the way of the ego or you abandon your project. The process works like this: You create something. Let's say you create a short novel.
Another aspect of writing is someone, at some point, more then likely, unless you are a complete bozo or totally unproductive, will compliment your writing. You will nod your head and thank them. You will think about it a lot for the next couple of days; It makes you feel good, but it haunts you. Where did this idea come from? How did all this happen? Do I really know what I am doing?
After a while, you become completely disconnected with your work: you don't know how you did it, you question if you even did. This is ten times worse in something like directing, where you were merely one of many contributors. Your reaction: reassure yourself and others of your key role in this process (brag).
Another big ego builder is the whole "there are no new ideas" thing. If you truly feel like you have created something good, you don't react well when people say things like,"This is kinda like a Tom Clancy book I read," or " This reminds me of David Lynch's early work." The ice spikes drive into your brain. Your body enters fight or flight mode. Most likely, the person whom made this comment is suddenly the victim of a tiraide about how foolish they are to make such an assumption. After all, you made it this far, therefore your are an egoist.
The e-factor, like most things, has good and bad sides: